I don't have time to write a real post (the more accurate explanation is actually because I am not very motivated to do one), but I feel obligated to introduce a more optimistic tone into this blog after all the negativity that is the dark black hole of job hunting...
It will take too long for me to describe exactly what's been happening in my life recently, but basically, I went from :( to :). As simple as that. Factors/reasons include:
- I got hired as a paid full-time marketing intern 2 weeks before I was supposed to give up on marketing and become a clothing retail salesgirl during the day who moonlights as a go-go dancer at night.
- Even though I was sad that I couldn't live with one of my best friends Priya anymore due to her job, I have found a great apartment to share with 3 amazing older dudes. They're my older brother/father figures who are 30 years old. I love them, and I'm learning a lot about men (translation: they never mature).
- I am loving living in San Francisco. City girl at heart, wassup?
- Overall successful albeit slow rebuilding of relationships with my family.
- Discovering that true friends stay in touch and care about each other no matter how far away or how busy they are. (You know I'm talking to you: Melissa, Ashley, and Priya)
- And many other smaller things, of course.
There are also things that made me change my attitude and worldview for the better:
- Yoga, excluding my impure ulterior motive, too.
- The book "Eat, Pray, Love." I HIGHLY recommend everyone to read this true story. The movie is a shallow adaption of the book but that's always expected.
- SO. MANY. MIRACLES.
I'm not talking about miracles like I found the cure for cancer but miracles on a small personal scale. Think when Anne Hathaway's character Mia in the movie "Princess Diaries" says she wants a miracle different from discovering that she's an European princess (Yes, I just admitted that I love that film). That kind of miracles. Two examples:
- I got hired as an intern on Friday the 13th. And earlier that day I received 4 other calls for 4 other interviews. And later that day I ended up not needing to pay for dinner by accident on the waiter's part...and no, I'm not that good of a person to let him know that my dinner wasn't on the check. All on supposedly the unluckiest day ever.
- I was able to reconnect with my (long-lost in a way) high school best friend Kali through finding her beauty blog on Eliza Dushku's tweet. Yea. WTF, right?!
I've realized lately how incredibly powerful the timing of things is. Thankfully, it has been favoring me instead of acting against me... I don't know if you can tell (most likely), but I have control issues. I want to plan out everything. I want to know what's on schedule for me at all times. The scariest part of quarter life crisis for me is the uncertainly and unpredictability of what will happen when. For other people it may be fun and spontaneous; for me, it's something that I try desperately to prevent from happening.
With everything happening lately though, I've been able to let loose a bit and let things come to me naturally without worrying THAT much. It's not an easy task for me to do at all to "go with the flow," "roll with the punches," and "play it by ear" (*secret groan because I dislike these phrases*) but optimism does come natural to me, so at least I got that.
I've also started to pray almost daily. I am still non-religious and one of the most secular people ever though because my prayers are said to an unnamed higher power of no organized religion. It's more for organizing my own thoughts and feelings, and sending positive thoughts and energy to those whom I think need help. And it's pretty casual. I just pray lying in bed right before I fall sleep. Basically, I stole this from the author of "Eat, Pray, Love" Elizabeth Gilbert. So far, it's been going really well. Can't really tell if my prayers are coming true per se, but they make me feel better.
I am sensing a new part of quarter life crisis coming my way though as I start to worry about my career path since I can't possibly be an intern forever. But this time, instead of freaking out with sheer panic as I see a storm approach, I chill on the beach and say "eh, I will deal with it when it comes closer."
Life is so funny. It's like I never got its humor until recently, and I am only able to laugh at its old jokes now. Good one, life!